I planned to write this blog about how fabulous this weekend was. You know about great performances at HyperGender, or how I enjoyed Beebo Brinker Chronicles at NYTW, or fantastic show at Kitty Nights last night and how I really liked the new act by Amber Alert and how I am so excited to see her as a part of December HypeGender.
I wanted to share my excitement about Glenn's visit to NY and how much I feel lucky to be surrounded by people I love. I wanted to tell you how this world can be so beautiful.
I truly cherish these moments of beauty I am given and I want to say I am so grateful to those who made these past few days possible to survive.
However, I have seen/read so much evil and negativity in the past few days that I cannot in my right mind celebrate the beauty today.
I guess this insanity started on Thursday...
On Thursday, I had the worst migraine day, sat in WS meeting realizing that WS have nothing to do with being enlightened. Luckily, a friend lives a bit above CCNY so I could rest for a minute before having to engage the MTA. I really thought I was going to pass out in the street, or on the train.
On Friday I received an email about gay bashing that ended up in a murder of Satender Singh this summer. A group of men attacked Singh and his family at a picnic and killed him. All this in front of numerous witnesses.
article On Saturday, I found out that a gay venue in Belgrade proudly claims no Roma and some trans people are allowed in their club. They use this as an advertisement!
bulletin screen shot Since then the manager has posted a disclaimer saying they do not discriminate ... but then where did the idea to include that in the bulletin come from?
On Sunday, I had the pleasure to learn that one can preach love among all humans yet be abusive when it comes to individuals. I don't want to go into this story any deeper because I don't want to continue with the circle of negativity that was started that day.
Today, after my "taking forever to get there" trip to the tip of Manhattan and various annoying people on the M60 who decided to push, shove and step on everyone around them I decided to check my email... just to find out that a dear friend was gay bashed a few days ago in Zagreb! Then I read a story about a woman who was impaled in 1993, during the wars in the Balkans. Then I read off handed comments how "shit happens" in the war.
So, now, should I just pretend like the world is a great place to live, go do my laundry, watch Heroes, and enjoy my oh so sheltered lower middle class life or is there something I, all of us, can do to make this world better, safer for everyone? I mean, really, can anything be done ... because I feel sick, sick of patience, of silence, of the world in which things like this happen. And we all know they happen and they are happening right now to someone, somewhere.
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